Sunday, April 30, 2006

it takes a cartoon to know a cartoon, it takes a smart alec to know one too.

woke up at 3pm today!!!

but was fun... the night b4... one whole night with jin and drew... just like old times...
saw sherm at the airport... apparently jin and her sent off the same friend
wat a small world...

even a smaller world to find jin's *cough cough* there....
typical jin to go for girls like her hahahha


spent the whole afternoon and night studying laws of finance
tired for the eyes man.

like sara say," i hate it when u study one whole chunk of law... then at the bottom, it writes," applies if and only if blah blah blah....."

hhaha then i will be like huh??? then must study from the start again.

while studying at bedok library today... i saw sara yet again!

hahah that gal... still sick... but then must still pia for exams....take care ah... don't let the fever occur again

i stayed all the way till 9pm... haha for 1st time in my life... it feels good to be a mugger.


btw....

dear schroders!!!
thx for your well wishes.
no my b day was not on fri hahahah
it was a week b4,
thank you tiboo and bogay for waking me and drew up early on sat morn
drew nearly killed me for that matter!

ye i know u guys miss me... i miss you guys too..
will come back soon ye
just give me a bit more time to get my things together

thx for telling me bout the race 2 weeks later...
will definitely go down to support u all....
don't despair... we can still be top team this yr!

must win ye!


anyway I know u guys have been wondering wat i have been up to lately...
start running again.... but still cannot beat vicky la hhaha
played a bit of badminton... addicted to it now
and gonna start my tennis lessons next week :)
but yah... my heart is still with the bike....
don't worry.

no break or fall will break my soul

Saturday, April 29, 2006

thx sara and hui li for the nice puma shirt and for urging me to revamp my hair.

and happy b day sara!!

oh man hui li is now darker than me... and her legs are super toned... haha i missed my toned legs!

more importantly... i miss TP track.

so sad my fave coach... mr chew left already.
stupid principal... i wish she really turn into goldfish one day.hahha evil!


aNYWAY DEAR GIRLS!
thx for forcing me into chapter 2...a new look for a new me
love my new hair lots! thx

fyn was funny... hahha

good to find a personal hair stylist... have been searching for one in a long while



then went over to drew's place.
as usual.... lots of crap...
no mel we did not hanky panky

and of cos... played winning eleven thru the night... hahaha man u rulez!
just alan smith, rooney, Ruud and Giggs can already.

i am using Man U for my campaign now...

speaking of which...

tonight is MAN U VS Chelsea!!!
sigh but i must study... sian

hahah so don't ask me bout the match

watch 2 superb movies... mechanic and motor cycle diaries.

the former had superb effects man...

not for the faint hearted...some scenes are really gross.

the show spooked me out a number of times...

didn't like the ending though...

this art flick ended without a blast.

i give me 3 out of 5 popcorns

motor cycle diaries was nice! love it lots... gonna add the DVD to my personal collection which has only 3 to date ( American History X, Crash and Love Me if You Dare)


It's a trip back in time, headwise, to the '60s. An on-the-road venture of the Kerouac-ean style, "The Motorcycle Diaries" is based in part on the diaries of Che Guevara. The young Cuban revolutionalist. Although "Motorcycle" is of the '60s zeitgeist, the actual trip took place in 1952.
narating of the coming-of-maturity tale of two young, idealistic men who wish to traverse South America before they hit 30,

I feel the show was a great success. from a director's point of view, it will be real challenging to depict how the road trip change the views of the young Che Guevara, makinh him a revolutionalist later on
Fortunately, screenwriter Jose Rivera's distillation of the books upon which the film is based is succinct and psychologically illuminating. Energetically directed by Walter Salles, "Motorcycle" is a smartly scoped story of great personal growth and transformation. It's not hard to see the personality/political basis for Che's later revolutionary actions.

Overall, the film's technical aspects are a well-realized, synergistic blend.

to many who are satisfied with the world politics today, it will be a bore... but to those who feel otherwise... anti bush... feel democracy has loopholes... this show is a must watch.


5 out of 5 popcorns

Thursday, April 27, 2006

gasp*just did a 10km run today.
ouch! for 1st time ever... i feel tired after a 10km run!!!
uh oh... thats bad.

wah to think that i slept from 6am to 3pm.. i am still tired... its only 8pm... so i have only been awake for 5 hrs!

did i tell you bout yest match.

beautiful game man.

milan and barca play really class soccer
i love that match to nuts.

handshakes, hugs by opposite sides when tackles which leaded to fouls were made.

control of emotions throughout the game

thats wat soccer shd be about right.. not shoving one another, cursing and swearing at decisions like villareal

Ronaldino is so cool!
shd see how he set up goals again and again... was just bad that thier striker ET'TO was so so selfish. wanted to go for personal glory sigh....

so thats my MSN nick today

sell ET'TO, buy henry!!

that will be the perfect team.

with Henry and ronaldino... beautiful... just beautiful

k so i had a very nice sleep yest after romancing 2 hrs of soccer.

woke up... did a bit of studying.. then back to my winning eleven.

drew i am hookED! how? i even dream about it!

today... my REYES scored 2 beautiful goals....one set up by Berkhamp... another by LJunberg.
i am on a winning streak now... henry is now the league's top scorer.

then went for a 10km long... came homw... postman delivered a present from AUST!!!


hahah THx Song and jia hui for the present... love it lots....!!!

tmr is sara goh's b day.

Huili says she wants to go esplanade.
so there were 2 considerations...

-not too expensive cos hui li has budget constraint

- no seafood. cos i can't eat them!

so i decided on calafonia bistro.

hahah my money is really dwindling by the day

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

thank you to one and all

contrary to belief... i did not or will not attempt suicide.

hhmmm i wonder how ppl got the idea!

even though i hate my pop... i won't end my life cos of him...

i wouldn't die cos of someone or for someone.


i not that kind of ancient chi hero who will put his life down for the country or for a lover.

so chill man... i am cool...
rocking.

even though my heart is colder than usual... i am still me


anyway thx for all the lovely presents!!!

Sherm for choosing the wallet for me!

thx gal.. hahah knew cannot be ivor...deep or nabel...

jeremy??? nehhhh...


and for coming all the way to my house to surprise me with a cake!
choc cake... my fave!
hahah thx


and princess Tiff for the nice FCUK shirt and quiksilver slipperS!!!

came in a nice box today... hahha was quite happy it didn't get lost in the mail

i was actually waiting for the postman the whole day today siah... cos i kind of have gut feeling it will come today!

and
bro JIN! for making it for the birthday morning run (love iT) hahha was nice... hey the dist like getting shorter and shorter ah

2yrs back we will run 15 Km together

then when u ORD.. we cut down to 10km

and now we only run 8km WHAH LAU!


and of cos missing the date with luyi just to celebrate my b day!!!

wah lau u are too nice


and of cos drew and ah ling for giving me a shirt and treating me to that fancy german restaurant....

must have been damn ex siah. and thx for the shirt... hahah real lame... it really describes my love life... thx

and of cos... there are a few others... but too tired to name...
thx so much for all the goodies.

hahhaa ARSENAL WON YEST!!!!

but kind of lousy play though...

somehow requieme and friends were so much of better form....
forlan as usual.... could not make any goals when there was an opportunaity for him to do so...
and the green globin striker was really out to kill.. referee shd have gave him a red card to shoving lehman at the 6min

wat happened to arsenal siah!!!
when wenger shd be on temper today... why camera nv take him one
lumberg was really in foul mood today... wah lao really affected his playing
reyes suck today... wah lao wonder wats wrong with him siah...
was a good choice to sub him out with pires

and henry... he wasn't even in the game at all!!!

can u believe it???

i suddenly that with a team like villareal which has such strong mid field... requieme creating trouble over and over again... henry can do nuts!

he really has to leave man...
the team can't support him anymore

k back to my B day



mel!!! whr is my present????

don't tell me its oreo cookies... i know i nv buy eey ore for u...
its not my fault! i told u liao... my mom gave it away... not me ....
don't worry when i go back packing with drew i will hunt down teletubbies and sheeps for u!
u love!!! them right?

hahaha but ah... u give me cookies i will not, i will not cook for u on your b day!!

unless of cos... u wanna eat rubber food.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Rainbow-chaser~ says:
hey dear...i don't know if you're awake, or at home, or at the computer or what...
just felt that i wanted to say some things to you...

my dearest boon...
i know i've been a lousy friend, that this whole semester i've been so busy with all the things i'm involved in that i haven't paid you any attention. i really should stop all this, because it nearly cost me my relationship. but i don't like that i haven't been able to even read my friends' blogs, not to mention yours...

i heard from jh regarding your accident, and i'm really sorry i wasn't there for you after it happened...that i couldn't go see you, couldn't rant with you at the world at why such a thing should happen to you...worst part is, i'm sorry i didn't even know about it until a few days ago...

but boon...i don't ever want you to have suicidal thoughts. i'm not just telling you this as a friend..i'm telling you this as a selfish person. if you're gone, who's going to care about me? who's going to ask if i'm ok when my nick says something funny? who's going to be there, to hear me scold vulgarities, to just sit with me?
Rainbow-chaser~ says:
i need you, steven ong hock boon, and i will for the rest of my life. so you better not die before me! remember i'll always luvya, ok?

thx.

such a sweet msg to end my 21st B day :)

i miss you.


don't worry i won't die so easily, unless andrew gives me a heart attack

Sunday, April 23, 2006

i hate andrew

i hate andrew!!!

i tell you why

apparently 1am drew still online. knowing he is a big bum who has difficulty waking up... and the 2 1/2 fast runners(i not fast... so 1/2) going to east coast run tmr,

steven the butler says:
go slp!
steven the butler says:
not tmr cannot wake up
there are no cows says:
siao
there are no cows says:
can

after a while...of all times... when i was studying

there are no cows says:

1-0!
there are no cows says:
arh haha

steven the butler says:
yah i know

steven the butler says:
why i no cable
steven the butler says:
so who leading?
there are no cows says:
pool
steven the butler says:
wahHHHHHH
there are no cows says:
riise score from free kick
there are no cows says:
haha
he knows i am studying... i just too nice to ask him shud up at first.

steven the butler says:
steady la!!!!!
steven the butler says:
wah lan!

steven the butler says:
why i nv go your house


there are no cows says:
ARHAha

there are no cows says:
cos u ned to study
so u know i need to study... so can u stop telling me wat i have been missing....
there are no cows says:
kewell playing well
there are no cows says:
quite impressed sia

so to stop his big mouth...
steven the butler says:
shuD up
steven the butler says:
SHUD DUP
steven the butler says:
i hate u
there are no cows says:
study bruddah

purposely right... should get poked right?


there are no cows says:
haha.. chelsea goal disallowed
there are no cows says:
haa
there are no cows says:
2-0!!!

there are no cows says:
WOOOOOOOOOOOOO
steven the butler says:
wat the fu#^%!!!!

steven the butler says:
wah lau
steven the butler says:
arfHHHHHHH
steven the butler says:
wah lau why i not thr'
2-0! says:
cos u need to study
2-0! says:
solid game
2-0! says:
actually enjoyin myself
2-0! says:
oh shit
2-0! says:
joe cole and duff
2-0! says:
arh damnit
2-0! says:
OH!
2-0! says:
almost
2-0! says:
OH! almost again!

steven the butler says:
go screw the wall
steven the butler says:
i hate u
steven the butler says:
wah lau don't make me scold so much on my b day can?

2-0! says:

oh yah hor
2-0! says:
happy bday
2-0! says:
hha
2-0! says:
Happy bday!!
2-0! says:
happy bday to u
2-0! says:
Happy Bday to u!
2-0! says:
happy Bday to Ong Hock Boon!!
2-0! says:
Happy bday to u!

purposely one siah this guy

i hate u!

i hate B days

i hate b days since young cos i nv get big birthday parties

i always dream of having a big pool side party...
but oh well that will nv be possible hahha
i always dreamt of pushing ppl down into the pool.. cos i am the b day boy... i am king.

i spent the last day of my 20yrs on this earth studying in a cubicle for 10 hrs... grilled by 5 NTU interviwers for 1hr.

somehow i feel my brain has failed me.

drew told me yest that thr is a theory that army slows down the brain by alot...
ye tell me man...
i studied my stuff 2 weeks back, today i forget 70% of it...

i am in such a mess.

i got no money...
need to result in selling off my 2nd bike...
wondering if i should also sell off by vintage bike ( fetch $200 u know)

and wow... my bro is gonna get a new car...

ye so my mom wanted my bro's 2nd hand honda civics to be my B day present...

but....

I turned it down.

why???

cos i got no money to pay for the petrol...

and the maintanence is like damn ex

i don't want to chauffer ppl around...

and i don't wanna drive car to the uni.

i am weird... aren't I??



Thank you weiling, drew and jin for celebrating my b day!!!
k la just a short dinner... but was cool.
i love thier company...
make my mundane life a happy one.

pork knuckles are real good...
ye fats gives u heart attack..

somehow i wish i died in my slp...
leaving my soul for a while will be nice too

why?
have u gone to a funeral... the body lie in the coffin. don't u think somehow whenever a person pass on... he looks so comfortable at his death bed...
i wanna be like that person man...
or maybe i just wanna leave this world for good


andrew said sth very interesting today... he said that i am just like his bro... doesn't wanna live on the parents...

i am the extreme case man.
i don't even treat my pop as if he exist.

somehow i feel my folks have ruined my life enough

some ppl ask," have u ever tried to be in thier shoes???.... sometimes u need to gain thier trust."

i guess i have given up on trying.

i think drew will understand... no matter how much u try to convince her(for my case him) that u know wat u want to do with your life... she will always think that u are young and wild...
and the situation always back fire for the worse

then your folks will quarrel over u... hack! mind as well don't even bring up the issue in the 1st place

i love my folks... but somehow maybe my way of love isn't conveyed properly... maybe
but i always back down my thoughts when i see my mom trying to stand up for me

i just hate it when she does that.
she is just so so sweet

i really don't want her to worry.but if i talk to her... it always surface the sad stuff... and i can't lie for nuts....
oh well these things sure make you more mature... makes u just wanna pack your bag, strike off on your own

i was just doing my own financial analysis today,
i want to leave house by 24...

a normal studio apartment is round $1000 a mth...
handphone bills- $36.40
food a week will be at $250
transport fee- $60 a week
liquidity assets... i have to stock an amt of $25K

which means if i start my internship....
i will have cash in a cheque of $1250 a mth for 4 yrs. this will only allow me to survive 4 mths after i graduate.

money money money... i hate money woes....

worst senario will be shipping myself to thailand, be ronnie yap's ka kia
but thats the last resort.


so wat if i gonna start working as a financial consultant?
its a proper job

unlike many ppl... i choose to foot my own bills... fund my biking and overseas trip...

yeah it is hard....cos the opportunity cost of it all is that u have to turn down outings during rainy days

but good side of it...
it gives a sense of satisfaction knowing that u are not living out of someone else's pocket.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

my 2 rock climbing friends who i really really miss...

mr hiroyuki is singapore 2005 top ten for cleo mag btw.


whenever i think of these two happily trekking in austrialia....maybe sky diving now...

i always tell myself,

before i die...

i will make sure i act a scene from mission impossible 2.

jump off the plane....trek thru the forest on a bike....canoe against the current....
and end it with some actual rock climbing.

problem is, i can't canoe as yet.

hahah and i haven't rock climb in a long time.

and i got no money to sky dive not like these 2 lucky ppl here.

oh well i love to dreaMM!

a dreamy night and of it must.

its end of 1st half and ARSENAL IS LEADING!!!!!

theatre of dreamS!!!!

the fire in them WOOOO!!!!

a beautiful goal and play by the team who is said to be at thier lousiest form of all yrs

right now....

i just feel like screaming

but yah... all my ching chong chi neighbours will complain : (

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

the magic footwork

barca was power siah.

no words to describe thier excellent play on the field.

great control of the ball man....

goal set up by ronaldino was beautiful

shiok

that man is like god.... he is seriously magic man

a deserving win of 1-0


in a few hours time gonna be Arsenal!!!

henry and berkamp....

steady Pong bibi....

another night of no sleep

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

faith is having a belief that hasn't got to be logical or real.

with faith, there are beautiful new beginnings

spread your faith, be the pillar of str to others.




a gift is special cos it comes from the heart.

somthing which serves its purpose.

the price of it is decided by the person who gives the gift and the person who receives it.

k lots of u should have on my theory bout NLP.

for more info...
can go to the following webbys



1. How do you choose a quality NLP Program?
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Make time for what matters most in our lives.
What matters most to your future?
The way you are "thinking" right now.

Seize the day,




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Type Two
The Helper. The caring, interpersonal type. Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.

Type Three
The Achiever. The adaptable, success-oriented type. Threes are self-assured, attractive, and charming. Ambitious, competent, and energetic, they can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. They are diplomatic and poised, but can also be overly concerned with their image and what others think of them. They typically have problems with workaholism and competitiveness. At their Best: self-accepting, authentic, everything they seem to be—role models who inspire others.

Type Four
The Individualist. The introspective, romantic type. Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity. At their Best: inspired and highly creative, they are able to renew themselves and transform their experiences.

Type Five
The Investigator. The perceptive, cerebral type. Fives are alert, insightful, and curious. They are able to concentrate and focus on developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation. At their Best: visionary pioneers, often ahead of their time, and able to see the world in an entirely new way.

Type Six
The Loyalist. The committed, security-oriented type. Sixes are reliable, hard-working, responsible, and trustworthy. Excellent "troubleshooters," they foresee problems and foster cooperation, but can also become defensive, evasive, and anxious—running on stress while complaining about it. They can be cautious and indecisive, but also reactive, defiant and rebellious. They typically have problems with self-doubt and suspicion. At their Best: internally stable and self-reliant, courageously championing themselves and others.

Type Seven
The Enthusiast. The busy, productive type. Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming overextended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.

Type Eight
The Challenger. The powerful, aggressive type. Eights are self-confident, strong, and assertive. Protective, resourceful, straight-talking, and decisive, but can also be ego-centric and domineering. Eights feel they must control their environment, especially people, sometimes becoming confrontational and intimidating. Eights typically have problems with their tempers and with allowing themselves to be vulnerable. At their Best: self-mastering, they use their strength to improve others' lives, becoming heroic, magnanimous, and inspiring.

Type Nine
The Peacemaker. The easy-going, self-effacing type. Nines are accepting, trusting, and stable. They are usually creative, optimistic, and supportive, but can also be too willing to go along with others to keep the peace. They want everything to go smoothly and be without conflict, but they can also tend to be complacent, simplifying problems and minimizing anything upsetting. They typically have problems with inertia and stubbornness. At their Best: indomitable and all-embracing, they are able to bring people together and heal conflicts.






Monday, April 17, 2006

pretend

we all pretend

pretend to be jon bon jovi one day

and one of the high society ppl on another

it brings us to our dreamland

away from our mundane work and life

yeah one may claim that inner beauty is all that matters...
but looks do matter

its jst impt to notice how the opp sex feeels and look

caught the show joan of Arcardia at 3... quite cool... its one of thsoe shows which gives u this warm feeling within u... a show which makes u go Awwwwww....

you shd try catch it one day


i think my army testimonial is too far from real.

" steven is an outstanding individual whoose ability exceeds anybody of his generation"

wah i didn't know i was that good.

but oh well it sure takes me away from reality and pretend to be someone

Sunday, April 16, 2006

porn video-ya right

stats sucks

k i thought i can throw away all these Maths stuff already.

then! i have to go back to it

best part... i was so confident that it will be chicken feet that i did not attempt any of these questions till today

guess wat-- my exam is on 24th APR and i can't find my JC notes.

well done steven!

(damn.. did anybody borrow my JC STATS notes nv return... pls stuff your head into the toilet bowl wahahahah)

realise i need to catcth ronnie yap by this week to get my testimonia cos he will be flying off for the competition this weekend... well thats according to dan
good luck guys! make singapore proud.. while u are climbing the mountain i will be at home playing Winning Eleven and eating my choc!


someone told me sth very stuPIDDD today... and i wanna make fun of her... not that she visit my blog anyway

girl: i don't wanna go out... but i am bored.

me: then call someone go out with u la

girl: not my style... most of them got BFs.....
i will sound like a loser if i ask someone to go out with me

me: huh? got such thing one meh

k so this girl just broke up...(wats new right... everyone is breaking up these days)
she makes a claim that most of her friends got BF and cos of that they will not choose to go out with her.
me : wah wat kind of world u live in???

i didn't know such theory still exist... i thought my bro is only smart enough to come up with such stuff

side track : some yrs back... my bro argue with my parents why cheryl is the right girl for him
somehow my parents didn't like the idea that my bro had a GF even though he was already 20...

so when my bro argue till no juice liao, he say," all the nice girls during JC take already... all those left in uni all the 2nd grade one. if i break up with her, i will be single for life

even though i was only 17 then... i was laughing my balls off... wat kind of crude theory is that???

i still remember when the tension was so high in the kitchen... i started laughing away. best joke ever. if i gonna be my bro's best man during his marriage... this topic will definitely be top of my list of things to say..my parents didn't find it funny though and asked me to go my room...

hahha sure bring back memories man....

so this friend of mine choose to indulge in the world of misery and wants sympathy from the world

oh pls no one is gonna help you

maybe the only sympathy i have for you is that thr is no one to clear your choke...

u can always clear yourself...

or there is always the pizza man...

if all fails.... watch despo housewife for ideas... and maybe you can get the monks.... priests... out there who welcome you


a friend can only say this much... its up to you to decide whether u want to get out of the ditch.

i am starting to blog too much

ha too much studying makes the mind do funny things like:

i wanted to make a ph call on the house ph, placing the headset against my left ear... i pressed the dessinated ph number on my computer keyboard

cos i really miss cycling
when i am doing some mathematical calculations... i will suddenyl shout my team capt's command," GO GO GO!!"


weird

I stumbled across an article that pretty much sets out everything that is wrong with MMORPG's nowaday

not that i am a game addict.... even though i am starting to be like one.
playing computer soccer day in day out sure screw ups the mind

i even dream of pressing R2 and square in my sleep


computer games is sth all of us can relate to.
i mean who hasn't played any games before?

oh well sth to think about:

from another article-

Having recently hit level 60 at WoW, I could not help but notice a startling similarity between WoW and Singapore.

For the benefit of those not in the know, level 60 is the absolute highest level you can attain in WoW. In many ways, it represents a coming of age. This is where your character stops growing and starts participating. There are many "60's only" places and quests. It's like getting keys to the executive bathroom. A whole new world awaits you.

Here's the catch. The game at level 60 is vastly different from the game at level 1-59. Strategies that once worked from level 1-59 absolutely do not work at level 60. At levels 1-59, you have many choices to thrive. At level 60, you really only have two choices to avoid character stagnation.

You either sell out, or compete for scraps.

Like WoW, Singapore literally hands you the game from levels 1-59. Sure, there are super-performers in school who get all the perks. Sure there are people who get crushed by the wheels of a merciless system. By and large, however, you -will- get a decent education, you -will- get your bellies filled, and you -will- enjoy a standard of living that, while not fantastic, is certainly comfortable. Singapore hands its citizens the equivalents of level 1-59. The system facilitates both casual participants as well as fanatic workaholics. You can choose to work hard, or not.

Once you hit 60, the environment changes. The strategies that kept you alive at levels 1 to 59 don't work any more. You realise that your NUS degree, and whatever few marketable skills you have means little and increasingly less in the big bad world out there. You realise that that you are largely helpless in spite of the fact that you may have worked your ass off during levels 1-59. Casual participation becomes nigh impossible. Only complete utter dedication will allow you to thrive - anything else risks stagnation. You realise that there are only two ways to achieve the end-game rewards. You can team up with people to get "raid" end-game dungeons, or you can fight other players in "(P)layer (V)ersus (P)layer" battlegrounds.

Teaming up requires having a skill set that the team needs. That skill set may not be the one that is most desirable to you, merely those most desirable to the team. The team does not care if you have hopes, dreams and aspirations of your own. The team only cares if you can contribute to help them slay Blackwing, Onyxia or Ragnaros. Except, if you've played WoW long enough, you will know that many raiding guilds are run like military organizations or corporations, and have more than their share of catass-ery.

i am enlightened, are u? (on path to help stop poverty)

MILLER: It's often difficult to convince people that they are in the same boat. You know, in this country people are building gated communities. They are actively hiding from things they don't want to see.

ARMSTRONG: And that is antireligious. The Axial sages said you must see things as they are, that delusion was one of the major things that hold us back from enlightenment, from God, from Nirvana. So we cannot get trapped in illusion.

Small groups now have powers of destruction that were previously reserved for the nation-state. It is only a matter of time before one of them will get some sort of nuclear device. And a gated community is not going to help at all if that happens. It reminds me of the story of the Buddhist pleasure park. Do you know it?

MILLER: Tell me the story.

ARMSTRONG: When the Buddha was a little boy, some Brahman priests are called in to tell his fortune, and one of them predicts he will leave home and become a monk because of seeing three disturbing sights -- a sick man, an old man and a corpse -- which will so distress him that he will become a monk. And he will save the world from suffering.

And the Buddha's father is not thrilled with this career option -- he has more ambition, more worldly ambition -- so he creates a sort of pleasure palace and brings his young son up in this. And he plants guards around the grounds to prevent any such disturbing sights coming within a radius of the young man.

So the Buddha grows up in this fool's paradise for a long time, and finally the guards get fed up with this and they send three of their own number disguised as a sick man, an old man and a corpse past the [other] guards. The Buddha sees that, and he leaves that very night.

The point is that the Buddhist pleasure park is an image of the mind in denial. It's the gated community. It's the United States before 9/11, which was retreating into isolationist policies within the Bush government.

Suffering will always break in. And if you turn [away], it's useless. It will somehow break in because suffering is ubiquitous. And it will certainly go past these guards that the Buddha's father erected. It will certainly come through the gates. You can't block it out.


Karen Armstrong is a 61-year-old former Roman Catholic nun, who is recognized as one of the world's great religious historians, and has spent the last 17 years deconstructing the major faiths in scholarly but accessible books like "A History of God," "Jerusalem: One City, Three Faiths" and "The Battle for God: A History of Fundamentalism."

Her new book, "The Great Transformation: The Beginning of Our Religious Traditions," details the evolution of the major religious traditions in the Axial Age between 900 and 200 B.C., a time of upheaval when four different philosophies took shape -- Confucianism and Taoism in China, Hinduism and Buddhism in India, monotheism in the Middle East and philosophical rationalism in Greece.


(Source)

Saturday, April 15, 2006

we are all brothers and sisters

yeS!!

i am enlightened...

we all originated from South Africa

there were 3 kinds of human species 100,000 yrs ago

namely homo sepians, and hmmm another 2 i can't remember thier names hahaha

i only remember one is a carnivor who has teeth of saber tooth and another has big lungs which enable them to survive in colder climates.
words has it that these 2 species have already extinct, and thus only homo sepians are left.
duh

hmmm i doubt so...
even though thr are no theories.... i have this gut feeling that there was a cross breed betw homo sepians and the ppl who survive better in colder climate(originate from Europe)....

which is the reason why there are ppl whom have big liungs and have better stamina


so about 100,000 yrs ago... before ice age, the world was mostly land.

we are still able to walk across continents..
can u imagine... we can walk from africa to asia to europe!!!

the reason why man left africa is to find a better place to live in (you see... our family members have already have the concept of 'there is always a greener pasture out there)

along the way, they started to invent things from grass, wood, mud which struck off the evolution of tools and simple tech.

hahah i wonder why 100,000 yrs ago, they already decided of the need to cover thier private parts
i mean it seems illogical... they move around on legs... shouldn't they think of sth to protect thier legs first???
why use a cloth to cover thier private parts?

andrew... u are the pro in such questions... pls enlighten me

anyway as they move out towards europe....
the climax changed... and many of the clan members died along the way cos of the cold wind and lack of food.... only 3 survived at end of journey

k here comes the interesting part:

man's body went thru a of changes as he travelled from Africa to Europe

the weather was colder and was at a higher altitude... thus man had dificulty in breathing.
not all could survive thru the lack of breathing... many died... leaving only a few to populate Europe

(natural selection... only the strong with big lungs survived)


cos of the lack of sunlight, man's skin started to change.

it started to turn fairer in order to absorb more vitamin D from the sun ray.

thier hair also started to turn from black to brown and to gold cos of the same theory above

thus wah la today... ang mo are white, africans are black and asians are yellow

but our roots were actually all from the same place
hahaha!

ye! i finally found the ans
go hug your friend next to you now...

all our family roots link back to a group of homo sepians who are co- related to one another

so we are family!

Thursday, April 13, 2006

cross road

NTU just informed me bout a interview on 22/4.wrong timing siah, if they didn't msg, drew and i will have won the stupid team DJU(dumb team took us 4 matches to win)

sian the interview is for non academic achievement, i wish i had made it thru grades... a bit the hear broken - yes

just when i wanna slack, forget bout all the unhappiness, play winning eleven at home, a bombshell has to be dropped again
it made me go thru some reflections and thinking again

was this interview meant to be???
was it to make me think over if i really wanna hang my bike?

i wish i didn't have to make this decision in the first place. if all went well, that stupid 26 /3 did not happen, i cld easily skip the interview, go thailand competition with the team, and all these uni stuff wld be well taken care of.

but no... 26/3 must happen

sorry jia hui for cutting shot our conversation on tues, i just didn't wanna talk bout the ordeal. thanks for your concern nevertheless.

i wld have been damn happy if i did not have this accident

even happier and things will be much simpler if my parents are completely not involved in this whole future of mine in the first place

now my mind is a fix.
do i really have to go against my parents and hide from them for life?
fuck la i am a son any parents will have nightmare of
i am like blaming them for all the shit which happened in the past.
thats not right
they wanted the best for me
but some how i am just diff from other kids
they may be the best parents for a typical child who just wanna go by the str road
but sorry ma and pa, i am just different

then again, why am i so weird?

i just have to put this down

mel told me part of her life just now.

hahaha

sorry jason, but i think this is damn funny....

just imagine the whole process...

CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
the goon's printed spoiled
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
so i help him print the letters...then last night he dun wanna come over to collect..cos he was tired...and he needed to rush the letters off already cos it was so late and so near to the dateline..
butler ong says:
hahah he lives nearby le
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
so..that goon tell me he wanna post before 12.30...i told him go and die..cos i will only b awake at 1 or 2...
so i really thought he want to post before 1230..so i set my alarm at 1030...830 i got up..panic..thought i overslept..so not yet time..so i went back to sleep
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
1030 got up..a little past that he sms to ask me whether i was awake..i told him y dun he come and collect now then i can go back to sleep
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
then 11 sth i woke up again..no reply frm him..
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
the i keep waking up..until like 1230
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
he ask me whether im awake again
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
u say irriating or not?

here is the best part

CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
his msg somemore was..."iwanted you to sleep more mah..." then if he stop there not so bad
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
he continued with "so i went back to sleep..."
CrAnKyMoNsTeR says:
DIAO...


sepnt the day watching tv as usual... wats new... and finish all the studying

thr were number of nice shows shows on tv... hahaha

glamour girls, the 70s show, oprah talk show,


and i even watch MM Lee dialogue with your generation
since its a sensitive topic, i shall keep my comments to myself



this is quite a nice video:

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

finially i obtained the 2 impt cards b4 Apr 2006.

1) driving license

2) pink card to freedom

but somehow the joy is not thr...

why???

it seems funny but the only joy i have seems to be on my bike


i run finish.. i always feel i have not run my best

i do an exam... no matter how much i study for it, i always feel i have done my best

but when i am on my bike, a always gain satisfacation no matter how i do

12 more days to RA films

iwanna watch trans america !!!

pain

you wouldn't be at a loss in the 1st place if you did not know what caused the pain


pain- hits you when you least expected it
self inflicted
un forseen circumstances
it is a wound not healed
take deep breaths
let time do its thing
trust lord on the rest

pain- the teacher of joy
the advocate of love
pain of losing something special
make us cherish the joyous moments we have with it

pain- there from the birth of the new borned...
our first day in school
our first love

seen us during our ups and downs


pain- live with it
love it
Its part of life

Sunday, April 09, 2006

my new obssession

in 10 min time....
the match between France and England is going to start


is beckham going to score again the same way he did against portugal???
to prevent that from happening, france must not commit a mistake near the penalty box

with owen out for 3 games, england only has henry to cause a brutal damage


down to just one man controlling the whole team, with the difficulty set to 3 stars, it seems the odds are against england.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

someone told me," don't try so hard, as when u fall, you will be more disappointed... so take it easy."

human beings are strange animals. many a times we laugh at the mistakes of others. " see i told you so." as if someone's failure equals to one's own success.

most ppl will not understand why one will spend almost all his life savings on a passion which is a pain in the ass to all drivers on the road.
god created many beautiful things in the world. why concentrate on one?


Andrew made a valid pt yest that at end of it all... do not let someone's decision be your regret for life.
If one is to live by the laws of another... no chance to express the spectrum of colours in him, wats the pt of living? in the shadow of another

so this is me,

someone who does not make himself attached to anyone or anything

someone who is selfish in my father's eyes

someone who somehow or rather( not that i choose to), nv take the normal routes in life

today in the news, a columnist qoute us as the new breed of singaporeans who do not appreciate the things around me, we do not sit down and smile when we all have a roof over our head, we do not see the importance of the PAP and what they have done for us all these years.

some peers i know are ignorant by nature, some are book smart but can nv apply this knowledge in life, others feel that there are other more impt things to think about, but amongst the 1001 untrue things in the article, there is one valid pt, we will nv place our votes till the last min.

i wonder why the older generations like to view us as ppl who take things for granted... as ppl who use knowledge in the wrong ways
yes we do not keep our virginity till our marriage
yes we do not see anything wrong in doing things the unconventional way

we are the children of the new evolution
who follow the flow of gobalisation

we think
we voice our happiness
we no longer keep these thoughts inept in us

we have reasons behind wat we do


our way of life is directly opposite to your retro years


I don't know what this looks like to the people who are looking in on us and our situation, but as someone once told me, only people who care about you will want to know the reasons and the circumstances before passing on judgment.

there is no right, no wrong to what we do today.


And so, I am contented that my friends cared enough to know why I did what I did. Once they heard what I had to say, they told me, "As long as you are happy

i need a new number

someone just called asking for service again

horny bastards

i have been getting these calls for 1 mth already

someone spam my no. on IRC !

argHHH!!!

i want a new number for my B day

Andrew:

I won Greece 3-1... i was using 3 star!

rooney scored 2, beckham scored one hhahahaa
( no prize for guessing how becks scored!)

i realised i just wasted my past weeek.

i have always wanted to exp how is it to nua or a period of time

i nv had a holiday during sch days cos of freaking choir.
i always wanted to know how it feels like to nua like everyone else

but i realise its real hard to spend time

have to result to sleeping from 11pm - 12pm ( the next day)
then sleep again from 2pm -7pm...
ye i was hibernating the whole week

i feel so awake now hahaha

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

root for me

someone tell me that everything is going to be fine

someone tell me that fate is in my hands, there is no such thing as bad luck

someone tell me that there is no such thing as curse


someone tell me all will be well again

i hate the chi sayings that during this period of time u cannot go out or will have bad luck

u cannot attend funeral or will bad luck

this yr is bad yr for cows and all these shit


ppl say believe it is better

yeah but when shit goes wrong,
someone subconsciously use these thoughts to play with your mind

i always believe if u are doing something which is good... u don't have to be afraid of this thing called bad luck

i somehow lost faith in everything.

i was nv into buddhism, thats one reason why i am quite diff from rest of my family members

its not that i nv try
but maybe cos lang too cheem, and i know such things require a long time to understand, and i guess i was nv ready to devote my time and open my mind to new thoughts


i always believe in myself, leaving fate in my own hands
so mum always tell me its good to pray....
but along the yrs cos my prayers nv come thru...

so i decided to pray sincerely for other ppl
cos i didn't want to lose my faith in god
i still wanna retain my innocence that the world is beautiful cos god watch over us
and best part of praying for others is that u nv know if it will come true,
so i always take it as it will
i feel happy
i may save someone's life without knowing

somehow i lost the courage to ask for help
just when i need the light most
i don't know whr or who to turn to


why am i resentful towards everyone and everything around me


i have reached the bottomless pit of my life


and by drinking... sleeping at odd hours... spending rest of the day sleeping is not helping at all


but somehow i know its not time for my death
and i wanna fight on another day

the wierd part is that

if i were to be in a operation with 50/50 chance to survive,

chances are i will nv make it out alive

cos i simply don't have a will power to live when i am sub/unconscious


why?

except for my mom,

sadly thr is nth in the world to hold me back

i wanna escape from his hell so bad

i wish my clock will just stop now

i wanna cry

someone give me sth to cry about

don't read if u trying to find an article to make yourself happy

cos i really fed up now

and i wanna rant

wats wrong with me

why haven't the fucking string of bad luck end

do i owe the world sth???

bike break

land up hospital

face disfigured

may not be able to cycle again

com give so many fucking prob

can't even log on net properly

and now even my electric guit decided to give up on me...

wat the hell did i do wrong in my previous or present life????


i feel suicidal

i need help

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

this is my plea for help

i am dying

someone save me

1 week on

i am going to change my whole site too...
cos everytime i open up my beautful site...

i just stare at the screen and get swallowed into the black hole of my brain
romancing the past

but everyone needs to move on right
and i need a new love to take me away

i wish cycling is just like a ex lover
just throw all those mushy mushy stuff into a box, lock it somewhr in the house and forget bout it altogether

sigh... jaded

on abrighter note

i think i have a fetish for chocs nowadays
i love chocs
all the way from hersheys to rum choc....hmmmm
don' take them away
i wonder why ppl say choc make them fat-wierd
choc is the best invention of man
its a sin many movies are built on
its a good b4 and after sex finger food
sexy ppl eat choc ( grey anatomy)

i start to drink a lot of alcohol and eat lots of choc
someone better stop me b4 i go crazy over my bacardi and 100 pipper

yes mel i have a bottomless pit
no i don't need to share this fetish with andrew
no he is not my gay partner
no i don't find him all the time

yes i have been eating
i cut down my intake to 5 meals a day

hahaha not like someone only 2 meals a day phew!

















don't anybody laugh at the above pict.


i agree its not art

its the lousiest of designs ever
can't blame it cos of my stupid com... it sux to the core... but too poor to buy a new one heh

this artistic pict took me 3 hrs to build

1/2hr to send across the stupid mail

and a night to get over the fact that i did all these for nth and...

i am now bimbo in mel's eyes!!!

wow... i brought that pt across real well, didn't i

i am a bimbo....

Sunday, April 02, 2006

update:

I was a pig...
i am still a pig... mel confirmed the fact oink oink!!

a pinkish one somemore oink!!!

eh..u really can eat these days hor?! when i arrive..u juz finished ur dinner..while watching tv. we ate yoguart..then ur mum bought u cup corn..and now u juz polished up the burger..i dun remember u packing away so much quantity before!!!

actually mel, its called making my mom happy.
she went thru so much trauma... hahha so wat ever she gives me... tell me... i just eat and do loh.

steven's mummy is young, kind and pretty..hahah..

i won't want to say wat my mom say bout u hahhaha

didnt expect her to go all the way down to buy mac's and waffles for me..although i only ate the fries and drank the coke..good luck steven..in finishing the rest : )

yah thanks loh.... thanks for coming over to the bedok night safari and feed steven. the only difference betw me and a zoo exhibit is a glass partition which is also used at red light district.


anyway bogay just sms me Malaysia race results...
Vic- 1st
Dan-5th
JUD-11th

congrats mates!!!

bogay says in the sms,"hope you can join us again soon"

I think that will be more difficult than getting a mud to eat pork

there is a chance i nv get to see you guys again

hope u understand

its a painful decision for me too..

i don't mind getting stalked by gays, homos day in day out just to be cycle with u guys once more

but i also don't wanna break my mom's heart


sometimes i blame god for these shit which take place

sometimes i can stare into blank air for 3hrs

sometimes i really wonder wat i have done wrong which make me deserve all these pain

but out of these misery,
i guess i learn to appreciate the little little things in life
and take effort to remember wat ppl say

for eg.
the words sweet, nice, i am not a booch!
and i want teletubbies for my birthday!!!
used by a particular someone(thx eeyore is so much harder to find)