give b4 you receive

majority of ppl will be cynical over this idea i am trying to put across.

many think this way of thinking is naive, some take adv of it

you know there is really no right or wrong.

but i stand by it

i have a friend who is really judgemental....
he pass comments which he nv thinks it thru...

he says my shoes are ugly... like shit...
i have no sense of direction
my job is slack

somehow he always says he doesn't mean it in any bad way...
but its just hurting at times
it still does...
and i really wonder how i could endure all these so called 'frankness' for so many yrs

recently there were many b days which come and pass..

cos of my tight income and busy schedule...

somehow or rather i just have this thought of not showing my face at the party

last week i bought a present for someone, i kinda choose to forget bout his party
this very dude is wat one calls a big cannon
many things he say are just make up story... but i just hee hee haa haa with him

phil and rena taught me this life skill durin one of the climbing sessions last week," just hee hee ha ha... it works all the time... and it doesn't look fake"

u can trust phil with all the jokes bout facts of life.
and u can trust rena to always lift your spirit with all her happy thoughts(she is just so nice a person)


95% of business fail in the 1st yr... 95% of those which survive fails in the 2nd yr

i was dumbfounded by one of my friends when he told me nv to trust ppl cos many are out there to con you
the very guy is a owner of a sports chain in singapore

i always believe that you have to be able to treat every one as equal...give everyone the same service you would give yourself

perhaps this is wat differentiate a real businesss man to a wannabe

i just finish my 4th ride today after my accident

its quite sad that since my departure... thompson grp has decrease in numbers
from 100+ the number has dropped to just 40.

and for the past rides i always taught its cos of world cup fever... with the tour de france and wimboden as side dishes.
but no.... the number still remains the same today

worse part is when my manager tells me its cos of a ganster team terrorising the sunday rides.
its bad enough that the number of riders has dwindled... but its eevn worse wwhen the 2 most prestigous grps are not seeing eye to eye.

somehow ppl are nv satisfied with wat they have.
they just want to be first all the time
even on the amateur level...
a learner in tennis can give a passing comment that she learns faster than another
(when there is really no big deal)
on the professional level... zizou gives a head butt to someone who makes fun of his mother
italians are bastards when come to competitions... (cycling, soccer all alike)but u can always trust them to get away with thier crimes and still emerge champs.

even in tennis... u can see the spoilt serena williams bitching off other players.

somehow i just am disgusted with the sport scene...
there aren't many figure heads to look up upon these days.

ppl who are your role model since young, someone you hope to become one day may just become a devil which you will nv want to be
i know of someone i used to admire in my sec sch.. someone who i say i will stay loyal to(which today i feel is the dumbest thing i ever thought)

but as i grew older... i just hated his guts for turning out to be a selfish individual...however i just hated myself even more for being his accomplice in crime

i felt crushed... and feel like a puppet and my childhood has just been taken away unknowingly by the same person.

but even after wat i being thru... i still believe in taking the first step to break the barrier betw ppl... treating everyone as my brother

sch starts in just 3 weeks time.

hopefully something good happens in these last weeks b4 i close another chapter in my life