moving on

talked a while with martin my sec sch senior in choir yest

after so many yrs he still has grudges against some of the choir ppl

i really don't know how to explain to him to leave the burden behind.

or maybe i simply forgotten all bout it already


the art of forgetting is easy... but it its leaves an unfilled impression in your life

why i said that?
just a few weeks back i was catching a movie at cine when i saw yan li(my jc choir junior) on the str.apparently she is now in amadeus (my alumni choir) and kinda begged me to go back to sing with them.

i called my sec sch choir teacher yest... actually was just to fix up a time on sat for me and martin to go down... but we started talking bout the past... one thing ms lau always remember was the politics we always had back then.

teachers don't like conductor.... teachers don't like students to like conductor.... students don't like teacher cos they are inflexible... i feel like laughing at all the mini issues which can cause a big 'hoo ha'.

yes politics are every where.
but its very interesting how politics are handled by ppl at diff level.



going back to the topic of going back to my sec sch choir this sat.
i really don't feel like going... cos i really don't know wat to say.

i hated the fat man for lots of reasons in JC.

i was nv his gay companion cos i always get turned off by him.me and him just can't sing the same tune

i remembered the first thing which i didn't disagree was his statement," a servant only serves one master."

i nv treated myself as a servant....i don't do things cos other ppl ask me to....
even in army... i was condemned in my mother unit-engineers cos i don't believe in following instructions which doesn't make sense to me
ironically... my determintaion to stick to my ideals make me an asset to Guards

and i think its very selfish to restrict a person to wat he can do. esp for boys of only 13-18 yrs old who have so much out there to see and learn.

another reason for me drifting away from the choral scene is the companionship in track
like i told ppl many times... i really wonder why is it that even though track is an individual sport... the friends we made thr still follow us till today.

hui li, sara, jins... lingli... ivor.... we just have so much to crap about when we meet.
even during gerald's 21st.... i just started molesting him like i always do even though i haven't met him for yrs.



even though i am moving on... i always wonder wat the rest are doing.
but one thing for sure... choir is not, nv my cup of tea

its just the way the oragnisation was at that time
during jc track,
coach chew always encourage us to learn more things when we are younger... learn more sports and skills in life... and captain ivor really show the way by walk the talk.

and now with schr_ders... the bonding really can't be explained...i feel attached like i nv used to
but of cos, i have to admit that we seldom see the whole team turn up for trg.... coach tiboo always say the day the whole team comes... the sun will rise from the west.
but our 'MO QI' on the field really makes the team a fun and exceptional one.
so it doesn't have to be a full showout of ppl... but when we go for trg... we make sure we contribute effort to the team


i just miss the team. i miss schr_ders