sorry honky

i am drunk.
but still sobber to write this

even when i just vommit my guts out...
i am still steven

sorry for snapping on the ph just now
wasn't in mood to talk or bitch bout someone else

i am just frigging pissed with lots of stuff.
feck i can blame ntu biz for screwing up my week's time table
but i also need to agree that there may be some things i don't understand
i can tell boss that its uni fault not mine for screwing up my time table
but i decided to shoulder responsibility once again

feck orientation supposed to be a fun thing
but i am spending a week rotting at home with no pay leave


maybe i shouldn't be bothered to reg for camps in the 1st place
but it will be so wrong not to join...
i nv heard of a freshman not joining any camps

i will think they are losing out on things real impt-
last fun in sch and net work of friends which gonna be so impt

i did apply
make my schedule free

but in the end my plans got back fired once again

i am fecking pissed on how shitty it gets at times-like everytime
like how nth i do in sch turn out right
looks like its all coming back to me now
daunting me over and over again

i just need to get away from this life
i just wanna get my freedom once more
ride my damocles day and night

so i will be off next week
riding the mountains

hopefully i will find my lost soul

at the place where i was borned