cross road

NTU just informed me bout a interview on 22/4.wrong timing siah, if they didn't msg, drew and i will have won the stupid team DJU(dumb team took us 4 matches to win)

sian the interview is for non academic achievement, i wish i had made it thru grades... a bit the hear broken - yes

just when i wanna slack, forget bout all the unhappiness, play winning eleven at home, a bombshell has to be dropped again
it made me go thru some reflections and thinking again

was this interview meant to be???
was it to make me think over if i really wanna hang my bike?

i wish i didn't have to make this decision in the first place. if all went well, that stupid 26 /3 did not happen, i cld easily skip the interview, go thailand competition with the team, and all these uni stuff wld be well taken care of.

but no... 26/3 must happen

sorry jia hui for cutting shot our conversation on tues, i just didn't wanna talk bout the ordeal. thanks for your concern nevertheless.

i wld have been damn happy if i did not have this accident

even happier and things will be much simpler if my parents are completely not involved in this whole future of mine in the first place

now my mind is a fix.
do i really have to go against my parents and hide from them for life?
fuck la i am a son any parents will have nightmare of
i am like blaming them for all the shit which happened in the past.
thats not right
they wanted the best for me
but some how i am just diff from other kids
they may be the best parents for a typical child who just wanna go by the str road
but sorry ma and pa, i am just different

then again, why am i so weird?