thanks

andrew: thanks for being my ma ma san on mon... following me around the whole afternoon.
letting me take over your new I pod video for a while
and of cos.... hearing me out.... helping me to fix up my com once again.
wat can i say, you are man's best friend

sharon and mal: thanks for coming to see me. mal: must make sure she eat ah... even with one eye, i can see that she had lost lots of weight.
yeah gal, thanks for coming all the way down.

Dan and JU: thanks for sneaking past security just for me at 11pm on sun. was glad to see you two. sorry i cannot make it a clean sweep. congrats on your win. yeah will sure hope to join you guys again.

zhenghan, dennis, yibin: thanks for coming down. hahah was real glad to see you 3. too bad wasn't a happy ocassion.,.. mr himbo no. 3: have you passed your IPPT???

Tiboo, bogay, johnny, ah peng,ronnie yap: thanks for making the trip down... making surprise visits now and then.
really appreciate it. sorry for all the trouble caused. thanks for taking care of my bao bei which is so far away from me now. and thanks ronnie yap for saying the dumbest thing all the time. yah don't worry we will still be brothers even without the scar on the left eyebrow. even though i really detest it.
yah i know i not cute anymore... u can tell all the aunties in camp already.
and no.... u cannot ride my damocles up and down as you like... no rental fee wanted also... so don't try bribing me with your $10 coupons

Ben and Phil: thanks for soming down. shit i feel so bad. long time nv rock climb with you guys. see you then i in hospital already.
promise to join you guys soon... not on the wall...but sucking strawberry milk with hienz hahaha
anyway be strong ben... don't worry your father will pull thru.... call me when u need to holler yeah. i will be thr for you. thanks for all the help as always

Raymond: k dear, i make you angry again. so sorry. ya i think i really need help. i really need scolding. i don't cherish life. yah i know. i thank god you are ard to wake me up.
pls do wat u need to do. scold me. anyway i wanna do community service now. can help?

Jason: sorry for throwing one x spanner at you.
Yah u didn't know wats going on... everyone started calling you... so so sorry

Xuan: thanks for the call from far far away. miss ya. did i tell you that our multiple miscalls woke up the whole room

ring one(me): shit la, i think its one of those sex despo again... don't ans

ring two: wah loa... they nv give up siah

ring three: wah lao... no porn at home ah....( start stretching for ph)
u are super lame as usual... can only trust you for this kind of cok jokes bout bai eee and chinese....hey don't be drunk on milk ah.... not good for health hoh.
take care... come back soon

and


mel: Thank you and real sorry. sorry for sending you such queer msg leaving you puzzled... givin 5 miss calls to me and making multiple calls to everyone.

sorry for making you worry again.

sorry for making you have only a few hours of slp. you cld have more slp if you didn't squeeze some time out in morning to see me

sorry for giving your purple friend away!!

thanks for holdin my hands, tellin me that i will be ok, fine once more.
thanks for making me finish the bland bowl of porriage( 1st meal i finished everything in the hospital) and lettin me have sth to look forward to

yeah one day we will go down to bugis to eat pork porriage yeah and of cos, all your fave noodles from blk 85 to ding tai fen

(and thanks aunty, uncle for your concern!)

thank you for being the 1st person to cross my mind in the midst of the whole ordeal in sub consciousness.

growing older moving on is a step closer to who we gonna be

real glad raymond told me bout the cremation today

or i will have hated myself to the core.


i didn't realise how close i was to u guys till today.
me and raymond decided to follow zhenghan throughout the whole ordeal without a 2nd opinion.
the relatives even felt weird that we even followed them to the bedok temple!

when zhenghan first shed a tear... uncontrollable drops just rolled off raymond's and my face
zhenghan has always been the carefree cheerful one amongst the 3 of us...
was expecting him to sad today....
was expecting him to tear

but i really didn't expect myself to shed a tear

i may forgo outings... i may screw up timings even when i cld make it for our day out...
but this one of the things which i make sure i nv miss-
to be there when someone close needs me most.

you guys are the ones who make keep me sane in camp.
life will be so boring without the 2 of you

all the silly moments we shared... or rather the ones i didn't miss


zhenghan's first DOO duty...
it was damn hilarious... cos me and raymond volunteered to stay over with him....
1st time in history 3 DOOs for one night
then the pizzas we eat for dinner

it is quite sad that the rest of the junior officers after us are not our cliche... the rest of AS1s too old for us...raymond's us is a chi retard...
mine isn't any better

which is a good thing too...
cos it make us 3 unique....
the 3 himbos of dieppe!!!
how cool is that !

well kind of sad that we have to meet this way today.
haven't seen you guys for a long time

HUGS* love the both of u... even though i don't show it


zheng han has a elmo!!!!
arghhhHH hahaha which reminds me so much of raymond.
hahaha shit... why must raymond resemble elmo...
like surfer girl :(


we all look like sesame str characters
i look like hermit the frog.
raymond looks like elmo
zheng looks like ....
looks like....
bert???


i found sth i want at the temple though,
actually it was raymond who found it,
a life size paper bicycle ready to be burned.

a joke out of the misery, raymond's forte :)

stumbling, i am moving forward

there have been a number of deaths around me lately... which left me thinking, i really wonder if i move on tmr, wat will ppl remember me as.

perhaps not many of you out there know, i nearly died in Thailand. and its for real.

when i flew off my bike at 66km/hr.... in those little split sec in mid air and on the grd... i was telling myself this is it, end of the rd... if there is to be pain b4 i pass on... pls make it a quick soft padded one.

but i survived.

so i am now going to tell my story of triumphant

not that i am the greatest cyclist of all time... but for the fact that i was borned different from everyone else(who else isn't), i have some difficulties which i was able to overcome... my story is worth listening to

disability is a blessing which push us, improve us.

i have cyclo moto problems... i nv was able to run or jump further than my friends.
i wasn't good in ball games...however in return god gave me 2 big good set of lungs and a good heart... lungs so big that i had to go to the hospital for its abnormal size... heart so strong that it produce a pulse rate of 44 BPM

i was a bit slower in the mind compared to others... i nv was able to grasp other ppl's conversation... i was part of a joke which i sometimes nv know of.... when come to studying... i took more time to grasp a concept compared to others, but i nv gave up.

there were many a time when ppl disc me... there were times when i feel disheartened... there were times when i somehow convince myself with the devilish thoughts," hey don't try so hard... do wat other ppl do... follow the flow." but somehow i didn't drift... i persevere

i thank god for making me special from others. taking away sth from me... giving me sth else in return.

i may not be smart... i may not be part of a 'in' grp.... but i thank god got giving me a big heart... being humble, being able to take pain and hardship and able to take the pain






the mountain behind is doi sutheb...
with the steepness of 8 %....
i really wonder if i will ever make it to the top...
i had my fears the day b4. looking out the window of the hotel room i was wondering if i ever will make it up to the temple in one piece

but i did...
a fleet which made me a cut above 99.1 % of singaporeans...
the feeling was incredible.
the mountaun was cunning... with slopes all the way with no place in time when i was able to catch a breath... i nearly gave up... but there were ppl on the roadside cheering me on... little children sprinting up with me till thr is no energy left in them....

and here i am... top of the climb.



then i thought... hey thats enough... i have already proved my worth... why try a 1269m peak.
but i did

steeper than the alps of france at times... it was said to be the trg grd for the young alexander vinokurov.






pain yeah there were lots of it...

sth i really wonder what make me do these things....

definitely not fame... not money.... so why do it.

i shd just throw the bike aside and continue with my running

but i persevered

i reached the peak of 1269m

which had a slope of final gradient of 20%


no man is an island...

even if u feel the friends around your life are not real at all...u know there is a friend watching over you.
in times of need... when u are left high in the mountains with no one around you,
pray hard... don't complain... keep your hopes high....

and nv give up




overlooking the whole of chiangmai,
i really wonder...
is this really me?
once someone who believe others that he was disabled.
someone who others seen as being the weakest link
someone who was nv more than a choir boy in other ppl's eyes

i nv shed a tear when i flew off the bike at 66km/h... leaving part of my skin and blood in the mountains
i supressed the anger when my bike suffered a few scratches in the process
yeah disappointed i was
but there are other things in life

to be able to do sth which is deemed impossible to many ppl
to be able to show the world that i have the strong mind and endurance to complete what i started off

it is the biggest trophy of all.

and i will be able to pass on saying
i may be stumbling... but i am happy that i am moving on.

Wat can i do without all these ppl

today's thompson ride was good. had round 60 ppl today

i can see a vast improvement compared to my standrad b4 thailand

did a lot of pullings today


6 mths ago i led one and flat out totolly.

today i pulled the whol 50 ppl like 10-12 times?

followed a lot of attacks also.

i was marked man today man, everyone was eyeballing me.

so did schroders proud...
making the number infront as our 2 star riders are away for MTB competition

the grp was real fast today...
round 42km/hr ave...
the team lost edwin tiboo... bohgay at choa chu kang
left with vic, chee kian, ronnie yap, seah, kimura, benard, darrel and me

front pack was made up of me and darrel all the way.following all the rest of the riders' attacks.
esp cycl_ worx which had lots of members in the front pack today man.

jo_n clark,
nick so_row
beN tan
ka le
adili
ahpui

as_enders only had one rider with us which helped us alot in breakaways and pulling

an_a had this bastard ang mo who thinks he is damn good.keep making attacks which are insignificant cos it only cause the amateurs to try to chase.

i really hate ang mos who thinks they are powerful, but are real selfish and bastard man
( sory for the _... was done purposefully)


ronnie yap helped me an darrel with covering the attack from thompson to new tiew,
again from chao chu kang to bukit timah. not bad for a 37yr old man

kimura, chee kian, benard, vic was following the grp behind... think she did real well.
everyone is gearing up for singapore open already.

shit i really feel i can do better...
cos ronnnie yap definitely improved a lot after the thailand trip.

i need to transfer all my climbing power to sprinting power man

everyone beware of schroders! we gonna bring u down!

some stupid thoughts

k sth dumb happened to me in Thailand... a secret betw me and my boss.

cos of it and the aftermath...i come to a conclusion:


i love life as it is now.
i think it the bestest moment as it is... i wish time will just stop here and let me relive these beatiful few mths i have been living

i am confident as it is living alone... i hate ppl who cross my path and screw up my life, sad as it is, i am an introvert who has a gift of being friendly and can attract new friends but i am even quicker in forgetting them as well
simple life = my kind of life
earning just enough for myself and my bike to survive is good enough for me.
i do not look for a sleek car or a nice house to stay in
cos i can;t afford it in the first place, and can nv dream about it( don't know why)
having just one of those chiangmai motor bikes and a wooden house by the river is good enough for me


to choose a trip between going aust to visit a grp of friends or go chiangmai alone to cycle. i will choose the later.- weird

my love life is 0, my heart is negative towards anyone and will remain that way for a long long time.

k on a happier note,
i am recovering from jet lack and alcohol poisoning.

drank too much in thailand.
can you imagine towards the end breadfast, lunch, dinner i was drinking alcohol... and you know i am not a good drinker... so u can imagine how shag i was, still talking nonsense now.... effect haven't die off yet

Beer chang is the best beer ever

Whisky doesn't go with steam fish, seriously

Tequila shot too much for me

100 pippers is madness

bracardi breezer is my favourite drink there

volka too hot to handle too

last but not least...

my boss killed me with the strongest drink ever

i am not good with alcohol so i will just describe the process

just round 30 ML of that drink in the wine glass..

it is twirled... then lighted up with a lighter and then transfered to another glass...
i was made to gulp it down in one shot...

after that.. my mind was blank...

when i woke up in the hotel room...
throat was burned...
and there was a burned scar on my inner leg...which made me wonder how i got it...
i think cos i was wearing shorts that day...
then i was drunk, so one of the bar girls brought me back to the room in her motorbike...
while carring me to the room... i was burned by the motorcyle exhaust pipe

ouCHH!!

i am back

tired.

shall upload photos soon.


i am in pain now.

so don't bother asking me out
too pain to walk
crashing at 66.7km/h is no joke man

totally my fault:
thrill and thrill, too complacent man

was a good exp man

make lots of new friends

thais are so friendly

food is cheap

life is slow, until the race/ trg of cos

the terrain is beautiful

the girls are beautiful too


recovery is fast too cos of the weather

26/3 here i come

4 more competitions before i go off to chiangmai again!

local race

sepang circuit

tour of egat ( Thailand)

anti drug race( Thailand)

thailand trg!

Bye bye boys and girls!

leave u with this song
don't miss me


from yours truly


L I T T L E    S U P E R H E R O    G I R L
written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003,  Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles
with lemonade
Play hide and seek
with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world
a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-
Yeah

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark,
but don't bite

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-
Yeah

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world







i love this song.

don't you?

A N G E L    I N    D I S G U I S E
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.

overkill, overtrain

i felt good in the morning today.

did an overkill when the team was sweeping from long house to neo tew.

was going at 41.1 km/h max....min 38km/h
quite obvious that i kanna scolding by coach yet again for the lack of situation awareness

i starting to feel the pain, heavy breathing... slide giddiness...
history is like replaying once more- i gonna appear in the news again one day

speaking of which, ronnie yap told me the funniest thing today
apparently he just received my cadet report... trust army to send the report only when i gonna ORD.. and apparently he laugh so hard at it... yeah joke of the office now man.

guesss wat they put inside:
steven lacks the knowledge of an engineer officer( yah this i agree... u can trust me for not giving a damn for things not impt in my life)


he lacks the phsyical fitness... shd improve on his fitness

this is the best joke ever man. don't use cycling... i didn't know engineers got ppl can run faster than me.

shit i am a weakling man!!

WEEEE!!

my schedule ( more specific- my cycling schedule) for the mth of Mar -May

1) 13-17 Mar Thailand Boot camp

2) 18-21 Mar Cameron Highlands Boot camp

3) 26 MAr Singapore EXPO Race

4) 1-2 Apr Sepang race

5) 27Apr-2 May Thailand anti drug race

6) I hope my aust trg trip is confirmed... then i will away for mth of June

so sorry for my friends out there who i have been neglecting all these while.

real real sorryyy

promise to make up one day

i am sure all my friends out there will live till a ripe age of 100...
so leaves me 75 yrs to date you guys hahaha


malaka race photos

look at the number of team vehicles supporting the pelethon





us... taking a pee in the bush middle of the race

I was real sad this morning cos of the fact that my bike suffered another fall yest.
this time this little malay boy itchy fingers push it down

heart pain

my wife is hurt sob sob!!!
i get very paranoid even though she seems fine...

why must be my bike to meet such stupid accidents

so unfair... i clean it every day loh
i feed it expensive grease and bathe it with expensive degreaser somemore

so why must it suffer such pain!!

i suddenly realise that all the accidents so far are by black ppl.OPPS!
but thats the truth

i didn't wanna be racist so i went online to find some nice qoute and stuff which will make me forget about the incident altogether

look wat i found:

people are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
forgive them anyway.

if you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
be kind anyway.

if you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies;
succeed anyway.

if you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
be honest and frank anyway.

what you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
build anyway.

if you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
be happy anyway.

the good you do today, people will often forget tomrrow;
be good anyway.

today is thurs!

just finish my morning ride with JUD.

dan couldn't make it cos the camp called!
yeah that sux man.
god bless the next 1yr 7mth of your liability

watched 2 great DVD yest - 'crash' and 'city of god'

here is my take on the 2 movies

City of God
kind of let down.
maybe cos my expectation for it was real high from the start
killing was gruesome.
not much talking
more of killing with no expression on the face
i really wonder if this is wat the director wanted them to be
to show how bitter the children were even at such tender age`
the show depicts that the killing doesn't/ never stop
it will continue for generations and generations to come

Graca Machel's key note address ata Civitas conferancw in Pretoria sums the movie up real well:

Gender based violence is one of the world's most pressing issues and this same violence, directed against chidren during armed conflict is its most horrible manifestation. Exposing children to atrocities, destroying homes, interfering witht the development of the child's identity while often simultaneously robbing them of neccessary parental guidnace.

we have to accept the responsibility that we have brought up a generation of youngsters who have believed that to achieve something you have to use violence. getting agun for a child is easier than getting a book. the demilitarization of a society is a crucial factor in countering teh culture of violence. Our armed forces have stopped making wars but our society is still heavily armed. Equally impt is to disarm the population and demilitarise thier minds to accept a peaceful way of RS. we need to teach our children and youth that violence is never, never again be used as a way for negotiations.

CRASH
i enjoyed this show all the way from the start
music is absolutely mind blowing as well
the show questions racism, nationalism in the USA.
how 20 characters' lives interwined
in the depth of the film, there are laughters to go about it
absolutely cool film.
definitely one of the greatest shows of our time




while i was sitting my fat butt on the couch, enjoying these 2 great films
I reflected and felt real blessed

if i was in the middle east,
i'd be wondering if my house is gonna get hit by an RPG, or 7.62mm rounds, or if my country is gonna be invaded by the neighboring state. Would i lose your passport? Would i kiss my citizenship goodbye? Would i lose my right to being a person? Would i lose mylife?

with globalisation and arrival of tech, we have allowed ourselves to see wat is going on in other parts of the world.
shows like documentary of the week, Get Real on CNA has allowed us to better appreciate the lives 99.1% of us singaporeans are enjoying today

Besides thinking of when i can lay my hands on the steering wheels of a SL 500, admiring those picture pretty ppl on tv series, i suddenly feel enlightened and pulled back to the ground that i shd enjoy wat i have today

to be able to cycle with a great team,
with teammates my life has interwined with
without having to fear a 5.56 round coming my way or a vehicle explosive in front of me,
life is good

the three basis we go about in the world today:
faith, hope, love.
it is important that we retain these 3 values which the world seemed determined to rob us of

ego of man

ha today was fun.. despite the fact that i had to cycle back home in the rain.

cleared my dental FFI today, saw jerly there, he was together with Wesley wan wei wen... someone i called W power of 4 back in pri sch! wat a small world it is. and best part... zi yong ( my sec sch bud) is thier PL mate too! too bad he wasn't there .

had lunch at cook house... went town with Ben to get his friend's present. was quite funny walking around town in no.4..... anyway he was finding a fosil watch....i wish i had friends like ben who are willing to source up and low for an ideal present and settled with a $250 watch for his friend.
K it isn't the amount of money they invest in the friend that i am just impressed with,
it is the thought of brainstorming over a suitable present for the past 4 mth

i nv brainstorm too long for a presaent b4.
shit i am such a bad friend

haha i suddenly have an diea.

STItCH!!! lets start plan for MEL's B day which is 25th JULY
we will have a 20 min B day agenda every other outing OKAY!!!


ate balestiar Dao Sa bing!! real nice.
too bad there wasn't chocolate milk shake to go with it. RAYMOND bluff ME!!!! he told me its a new item in MACS menu! but i cannot find it at NEWTON's MACS cafe....only espreso, latte and all sorts of coffee bean's look alike...why did they take it out in the 1st place man

k i admit mel, i have a bottomless pit

i ate a total of 7 meals today.. my mouth just can't stop chewing...right now i am munching on an apple.

lets see:
in morning i had corn flakes
reach camp had maggie mee
ate lunch at cook house ( nasi branni)
but wait, before that i visited nee soon canteen and ate a chicken burger
dao sa pia at balestiar
reached home ate dinner
just finished my supper(tuna sandwich)


k...i ratter on and on too much.... back to the topic of the day, ego of man

when i reach camp( after my morning ride) my U/s was busy with his money making venture
when i first see my storemen,they were gossipping about him... like he too idealistic la, not relax la, nv talk la. in short.... too unhip/ un slack for our office

my reaction to thier complaints:
shit i don't even remember wat i said. mind going thru army deletion process already

mu u/s brought me to a firm last week.... if i have known better.. i wldn't have stepped inside, cos i think i nearly quarrelled with everyone there

but i think he meant well to bring me there( hopefully la ) so i didn't really went all out and question everything in the company
i wld have made a very good auditor man...and psycho everyone else there into leaving the company... but give my U/s face la....
and i am quite sure he is like psychoed by the firm for very long already.

as usual, the ppl of this so called money churning paramid are young, think they know the game, and act as if they are your friend... and these ppl of 20 yrs of age carry bIG names like district manager, regional manager... WOW. does the cleaner even have a name like district hygience manager or sth?

worst thing anyone can tell me," trust me, i won't bluff u one, nth to lose, only have my words to trust."

i was like ,' pls la, i don't even trust my brother or parents, think i will trust u?'

so as expected when i ask about the credibility of the company... like ISO, any cert....he start to become kan cheong about my question. ( its quite obvious already, everyone else who join the film just wanna do a one shot kill... thats the reason why they target the ppl of young age)
when i ask for the structure of the company, he couldn't give me a satisfactory ans
worse still... his topics jump from place to place, not coherant,a nd when i ask him to repeat himself... he comes out with a du lan face...

and i heard he is my U/s manager... and my U/s seems very impressed with him....shocking... cos i think my U/s is much smarter.. and more imptly, has a better EQ, but my U/s doesn't has a relative high EQ( young... still learning), so u can roughly picture how bad the manager is

if an employee of a company cannot tell you much or anything of a company structure...
says things to you like a spoiled tape recorder...
go thru PR trg and doesn't even know how to simply smile and ans a simple question
how to convince ppl that the company will make money and u will benefit from the package?
hmmm the company's outlook is bleak then.
ppl in thier 20s nowadays...too over confident... think they can run a revolution or sth...

i bet right now while i am ranting, they are still at shenton way pyschoing ppl to join the company

i feel the root of the problem is that my U/s is silly enough to think he knows me well..which makes me guilty too. shit la... i feel bad now.
like wah lau, if i was really in financial crisis u wldn't see me with a 10 K bike in the 1st place.
i wouldn't even have the mood to go for competitions or overseas trg.

worse, still, he didn't wanna tell me much of the compnay in the 1st place cos he says its illegal.
HUH?
wat is illegal?
doing part time in army or the company's existance
doing part time in army is like so common.
if a clerk who is a prof in perth can transit to and fro now and then to give lectures... there is no reason why working at night is illegal

if you think the company is illegal.... are you doubting the company's credibility?
so the claims your REGIONAL MANAGER made that the PAP is quite supportive of the company is all a lie la


sometimes i really wonder wat they teach at this certain BOYS sch he originated from

not that i hate that sch... my only exp with that sch are those die heart fanatics at track finals who will paint thier face in red and yellow, cheer like there is no tmr.... and stamp thier feet like it will ake thier runners run faster

but i have to say, i have quite bad impression of everyone else from there

arrogant, high ego.. yeah its good to have these qualities. cos will power is good... but sometimes it gets over bearing

another good ex. to make my stand will be ken_rew.

i just pass a omment that his hair is short... you know me la, cos when i don't really like someone, i just talk about everything else not impt... even the sky and moon

guess wat he said
" short??? i cut at REDS ye"

i was like HUH??? wats the link. you mean they put a certified stamp on you head after a haircut and so no matter how screwed your hair is... ppl will still admire it cos its a product from REDS???

parents are real irritating sometimes

ronnie yap told me once that i shd nv call myself stupid or ask questions why am i borned like that- small shoulders, funny stomach.
he says it will be injustice to parents who gave birth to you.

ha my boss can be so wise and yet foolish at times

i just had my dinner and my mom makes the comment that i shd learn to save.

i was absolutely DU LAN.... but i beared with it :)

me- spend lots of money?

K that i agree... but it is to support my dreams wat.... not say i spend it on clubbing, pubbing or girls


then she will blabber on with children having to support parents at a young age... children of next door neighbour need to work

i somehow got this urge to blurt out

,"you think they so good... go adopt them loh."


i realise how my parents and I have gone thru evolution.

like creatures who need to chnage thier skin colour, have some certain characteristics to avoid danger... i have developed some of my own along the way

when i was in pri sch... my mom has this tendency to compare me with other children of the same class.
i always felt inferior to them...
which led to lack of confidence when i grow up, till date i still have this prob.
my bro was the bench mark, so anything lousier than wat he did i will deem to be not trying my best.


my mom will always make comments like i iwish my son will be more like your son, he always cannot study one.... in front of my friend some how, which is sth they always disc me about

so u can probably picture me as a fat nerd back in pri sch who can't fend for himself, don't do sports... the only sport i do was skipping???
all these started to stop in sec sch when i decided that i will not let my parents know any of my friends.- evolution


but then once in a while she will always call up those 'so called friends/ mothers' of hers and the comparison starts again.

cos of that, i was damn determined to show her that i will make her proud of me one day.
i joined choir( even to my disliking, cos she like me to), but in the ende no matter how i detest it became president.
i took part in lots of australian quiz.... i always remember the high distinction award i get hhahah. thats the only academic success which was real ty co i am proud of

and i will cook up some cock story to impress her... majority are like not true
like how some girl at concert will try to get my ph no.
that was so dumb!
they will only do that if
1) they are ugly
2) they are despo

cos look at me... i was a round ball then who probably look like someone weird with hidden agenda


so i didn't go to VJ, land up in tp... which wasn't so bad cos my bro landed up in that freak sch too.

when i reach 17, that was when my father's rubbish started to start.
he ask me why i waste time in track.

shd spend more time studying.... be a good choir boy

so ever since i started JC, i began to relate less and less to them
yah i was close to my parents, or rather i force myself to be so they will not worry bout me,

95 % of our conversation is all cock up story
like how i meet good friends like mel, xuan drew who i will always study with
like huh? i don't remember we 4 studying b4... even if we do, i think nth reach my brain.

and like how i enjoy choir
pls... i always have this desire to burn the place down hahahaa( at times.... )

maybe thats why i enjoy myself in army, nth and no one to compare with...
but i always think they will rather i become a office boy.

last straw came when my father told me that i am spending too much time cycling.... i shd concentrate on uni( even b4 i enter??), and that he is not proud of wat i doing now.

that was when i became freaking pissed off!

like wat the fuck.,.. i am you son man.
u think i do things to make you happy one ahh?

thats why i figure i am so close to my team in the first place... cos they take care of me, they are like brothers, sisters and fathers i nv had.

which explains my high tolerance level as well... nth can be compared to my parents nonsense man

u know sth i wish someone tell me why i was borned into this family. seriously... i am dysfunctional.
i totally don't belong here

i am back!!!

i won't wanna tell the world wat i have been doing in camp the last week... so don't ask.

anyway morining trg has taken a toll on me... so don't blame me if i start uttering rubbish mow.

back track on wat happened few days back:

Vick asked me during one of the trg if i have a GF
my boss initially replied to her that i am gay so don't bother asking
guess wat vick replied," i curious mah, cos u this kind confirm got one line of gals queueing up one, but don't get one la, singapore gals all cannot make it one"


but i was too tired to really think of wat she said till someone called me yest.
andrew- i somehow got this gut feeling and think it has gotta be sth to do with those 3 $5/hr gals we met yest.
anyway that fellow asked if i was interested in modelling....
i was like " huh u sure a not, i think u call wrong person already.... pls do a check, my no. is 90886693."

the guy said," correct la, correct, we even have a candid shot of your side view."

hmmm... i wonder wat was i doing when that shot was taken,
anyway i really think that
1) that model agency is a hoax, its actually a bothel ( i don't mind servicing rich tai tai hahahah)

2) they will call me down and try to cheat my money for all the modelling lessons, make up, hair cut...etc etc...

anyway on a even happier note,
i am enlightened!!!!
and i wanna share my knowledge with the world ... yes thats yoU!!!

E = MC square
i nv really thought of it any more than a physics formuala till i watch channel news asia yest

for those physics/ chem idiots out there

E= energy
M= mass
C= speed of light

physicians of 17 century have already proved that matter is relative, they cannot be destroyed, only can be changed from one form to another, so there is no loss of mass

physicians of the 18th century later proved that energy is changed from one form to another
so energy is not lost.
loss in KE will = a gain in PE

a mass which is 2 times the weight of another mass, when dropped from the same height, the mass greater in weight will produce 4 times the impact than the smaller mass
cos a mass with greater weight has greater PE than the smaller mass,

using the above theory that loss of KE =gain of PE, loss of PE=gain of KE,
change of KE (1/2 MV2- 1/2 MV2)= MG
a larger mass moving at same velocity will produce 4 times as much force
it therefore prove that the above expriment is true

using this new physics break thru, Einstein embark on this passion to find out about the potential of light

he went to a railway track and studied the movement of the train.
he convinced himself and later the ppl that if the train is moving at speed of light, when you look out of the carraige window, the surrounding will be just white light. if you look at a mirror, you will not be able to see your own reflection.

if more coal is placed into the chamber, it will cause the train to move faster, as light is constant and mass of the train increase, the enegry output increases too.

E = MC2

however he was not able to convince fellow physicians at first. even though he has published 3 new papers and received a nobel prize, the idea that E= MC2 was not accepted by majority of the physicians
it later took 2 German chemists to prove that his theory stands

in the 19 century and b4, ppl see atoms as drops of water, adding of more electrons will only cause the atom to grow bigger...
however the 2 German chemists managed to prove that if the atom becomes unstable because of addition of neutrons, fission will occur.
this fission can only occur if energy exist...
it was later calculated that the mass of the 2 atoms thru fission does not change. and thus a another break thru was made:

E = MC square

change of mass ( addition of Electrons ) X C2 = energy needed for fission to take place
and thus Einstein's theory stands

this discovery in germany caused a sudden surge in Scientists discovering the potential of uranium and radium

Knowledge is power, even though sceintists wanted to use this new break thru for better, the NAZIs see it as a way to end the war and the americans did not want thier world to become non existant either...
thus the 2 countries began to explore the possiblities of chain reactions of Uranium, competing with one another in the discovery of hidden energy potential, and thus the atomic bomb was borned

http://www.aip.org/history/einstein/ae43a.htm - sample of letter to president rooservelt


Today, there are theories that the reason for the existance of this world is not the creation of god....

think of it

the sun releases 40000000 tonnes of energy/ sec.
this energy pulls the stars towards one another....
in a trillion yrs, the stars collide,
energy is released in the process,
this large amount of enegry pulls all the debris of the star together...
and thus earth is borned

if this article sparked a sudden interest in you, pls catach documentary of the week on channel news asia at 8.30pm tonight.



my side view very nice meh???