stumbling, i am moving forward

there have been a number of deaths around me lately... which left me thinking, i really wonder if i move on tmr, wat will ppl remember me as.

perhaps not many of you out there know, i nearly died in Thailand. and its for real.

when i flew off my bike at 66km/hr.... in those little split sec in mid air and on the grd... i was telling myself this is it, end of the rd... if there is to be pain b4 i pass on... pls make it a quick soft padded one.

but i survived.

so i am now going to tell my story of triumphant

not that i am the greatest cyclist of all time... but for the fact that i was borned different from everyone else(who else isn't), i have some difficulties which i was able to overcome... my story is worth listening to

disability is a blessing which push us, improve us.

i have cyclo moto problems... i nv was able to run or jump further than my friends.
i wasn't good in ball games...however in return god gave me 2 big good set of lungs and a good heart... lungs so big that i had to go to the hospital for its abnormal size... heart so strong that it produce a pulse rate of 44 BPM

i was a bit slower in the mind compared to others... i nv was able to grasp other ppl's conversation... i was part of a joke which i sometimes nv know of.... when come to studying... i took more time to grasp a concept compared to others, but i nv gave up.

there were many a time when ppl disc me... there were times when i feel disheartened... there were times when i somehow convince myself with the devilish thoughts," hey don't try so hard... do wat other ppl do... follow the flow." but somehow i didn't drift... i persevere

i thank god for making me special from others. taking away sth from me... giving me sth else in return.

i may not be smart... i may not be part of a 'in' grp.... but i thank god got giving me a big heart... being humble, being able to take pain and hardship and able to take the pain






the mountain behind is doi sutheb...
with the steepness of 8 %....
i really wonder if i will ever make it to the top...
i had my fears the day b4. looking out the window of the hotel room i was wondering if i ever will make it up to the temple in one piece

but i did...
a fleet which made me a cut above 99.1 % of singaporeans...
the feeling was incredible.
the mountaun was cunning... with slopes all the way with no place in time when i was able to catch a breath... i nearly gave up... but there were ppl on the roadside cheering me on... little children sprinting up with me till thr is no energy left in them....

and here i am... top of the climb.



then i thought... hey thats enough... i have already proved my worth... why try a 1269m peak.
but i did

steeper than the alps of france at times... it was said to be the trg grd for the young alexander vinokurov.






pain yeah there were lots of it...

sth i really wonder what make me do these things....

definitely not fame... not money.... so why do it.

i shd just throw the bike aside and continue with my running

but i persevered

i reached the peak of 1269m

which had a slope of final gradient of 20%


no man is an island...

even if u feel the friends around your life are not real at all...u know there is a friend watching over you.
in times of need... when u are left high in the mountains with no one around you,
pray hard... don't complain... keep your hopes high....

and nv give up




overlooking the whole of chiangmai,
i really wonder...
is this really me?
once someone who believe others that he was disabled.
someone who others seen as being the weakest link
someone who was nv more than a choir boy in other ppl's eyes

i nv shed a tear when i flew off the bike at 66km/h... leaving part of my skin and blood in the mountains
i supressed the anger when my bike suffered a few scratches in the process
yeah disappointed i was
but there are other things in life

to be able to do sth which is deemed impossible to many ppl
to be able to show the world that i have the strong mind and endurance to complete what i started off

it is the biggest trophy of all.

and i will be able to pass on saying
i may be stumbling... but i am happy that i am moving on.