Thursday, May 25, 2006

wonder if its just a matter of coincidence

Jenny was from china
Jenny was a graduated from Nan Da uni... she was a lecturer at nan jing uni. 2 yrs back... she gave up everything she has built thr... uprooted herself and came over to singapore to accompany her husband, has been giving chi tuition to pri and sec sch kids.... and decided to go into the finance sector even though she knows limited amount of eng


the lecturer was handicapped but managed to stand on his '2 feets' again
he had a severe illness 10 yrs back which caused his leg to be amputated. took him 6 yrs to progress from crawling to walking again... today he looks normal moving about with his clutches


Mr James majors in ACC and finance
he graduated from NUS during 1975. originally only with a ACC degree... he worked as a auditor for 5 yrs b4 furthering his studies in australia.... finished his finance studies there... came back singapore, worked in the bank and later proceeded on to be a VP of one of the private uni here


do you see the similarity betw me and the 3 ppl mentioned above?

jenny is like christmas past... showing a reflection how insensitive i was.
i used to detest ah tiongs... seeing them as just money suckers... but the person sitting next to me today taught me that in life... there is really nth to feel prud and arrogant about.
and marked my words... anybody who should be given the rights to look down on locals... its her.

she told me that she used to look down on the ppl working with her in the uni she taught at. didn't even feel that any of them was worth talking to...
simply becos she was the only one who graduated from NAN DA which was considered a uni which only the top 0.1 % of the china population who can qualify for.
but when she came over to singapore 2 yrs back... she felt she had nth to be proud of cos she doesn't even know how to speak eng.... she realise there are so many things a person might know which you won't know... so who are u to say that u are smarter and dictate someone else's life

i was quite ashamed of myself.
1) cos i used to detest ah tiongs simply cos i got cheated by them

2) i used to have this mindset that hiyah... this person not worth talking to.
i won't deny that i am still having this prob now... so i am learning to accept everyone.


james is just like a projection of wat i will want to be in future.
i always thought my thinking was real crude... like sth the government will not allow.

after the accident... i sat down.. thought of wat i wanted to do in future

so this was wat i planned out

1) finish my degree in ntu

2) work for a few yrs, earn enough money

3) leave everything behind, travel with the money i have for maybe 5 yrs or so, give back to the world by teaching at orphanage... telling the foreigners bout my life so far then start from grd zero in another country

4) finish studying for another degree b4 settling down... or if i hit the age of 55 by then... still no one wants me by then... i may consider jsut cycling round the globe for rest of my life.

not a normal route one will take right?
well thats me.... just gald that mr james make my route more feasible today



Mr Ezy made me felt at ease in class. and well...for many days, weeks, mths to come

i realised thr is nth wrong with how i look....why shd i keep avoiding the public.
thr is no need to tell me how great u were b4 the accident...or try making ppl understand why u do wat u do... cos only ppl who are adventurous.... open minded will strike a conversation with someone who thinks the same way
i thank him for telling me not to give up on my dreams.... cos it is wat makes life complete.

i just need the advice to come from someone who was in my shoes b4.

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