today is soft rock sat!

la la la

i love soft rock weekends


i just wish i have SCV now... can catch a game of soccer or tennis rather than play godfather.

so i decide to go for a run/tan later heh



when the mind is idle... it starts to think too much
do you guys think its good or bad for the mind to be idle?


recently... i have been experiencing more and more problems with my friends....
not that i having problems with them.... more like they having problems with me

but funny thing is that i still feel i am still the same... still the steven 1 yr back... 1 yr forward.

neh i shd change the words....

the steven today knows how to take care of his well being... not that i get to less accidents... but i take care of myself emotionally.... like i just can't be bothered by poor insensitive comments of others.

rememeber the tennis advertisement on CNA... sometimes its only better to hear the good things.

i am sad that i am blamed for something which is not my fault which brought back hell lots of issues.

and dear mr drew... here is wat i have to say

sth which i nv bring the courage to say b4

i am quite put off when u told me everything started off from the day of your b day.

for your info

i was the one who thought of the present. you think its easy... wanna know how many mag i flip... talk to how many ppl b4 getting it? even if you like it or not... cos you must develop the photos and stuff... i only thought it will be the best present for you.

i don't mind if no appreciation is showed for the present or the fact that i really drag myself to your b day celebration even though i don't wanna meet the rest matters to you

but i feel cheated when u say that it is cos of that very day that i start to be the receiving end for all your shit

if i am really your good friend from the start... i really thought u will think more highly of me then to think of the most superficial reason of why initially... i couldn't be there early as u wanted me to be

if you say that you are holding the grudge cos of that incident...

how about someone bearing all the suaning and stuff every single time.... dragging myself to be thr in the grp even though i start to hate every single moment of it

i like it when its just u alone.
when in a grp of girls... you just make a 180 degrees change... you are just not sensitive bout lots of stuff

which is freaking disgusting at times


ye you are right bout that pt... i am too selfless.

i shd think of myself more

i shd have done the thing i should have done a long way back

i shd have listened to ronnie yap and friends

i just try too hard

i shd have known when enough is enough