my boring life

i feel so bored.

its like when it rains and cos i hate cycling in the rain, i wld just rot / sleep at home.

how fun is that.

i wanna travel overseas man...
not thailand..

if i have the money... i will back pack road trip to britain... france.. spain!!!

argh i realise how much i miss britain...
it was real fun the last time i went thr....

rome bath house... shakespear home....the headless ghost at dowling street...so many more!!!

mom always say if i have the money in future... i can do wat ever i want.
but it will nv be possible... cos by then i may be married... i may have kids and job to think about... how to do those crazy things i wanna do like actual rock climbing... sky diving....ski ing....snow boarding... so many many more... somehow i always wish mom was married to an ang mo instead... thats a nonsensical thought cos i may nv be borned instead!

sigh i wish i cld turn back time.... to days in VS when everyone was king and money / status was nv an issue... hanging out with tuition friends... girls met thru BBQ and parties were so fun then!!!
i miss those times.... hate us if u want.. think we are ugly if u want... admit it you guys are jealous we were having so much fun then.. hahhaa

now life is so much more difficult... being older... we tend to be more responsible for our actions thus thr are consequences to think about for everything we do...perhaps that is wat make us more introvert nowadays...

i remember vividly the days of carolling with VJC.
that was definitely one of the best times of my teenage life.
just slacking ard late thru the night...rowdy bunch of us singing carols in the bus irritating everyone... at end of it all we will make a comment... i am from changkat changi... sue me if u want!!
evil!
life was so fun then

somehow i still regret.
still regret and wonder how things will be like if i were to go VJ instead.

i keep telling myself its not worth it to regret man...but oh well i think its a triat in human don't u think? we like to regret and brood over it... thats the reason why self help books make so much money man... hahaha
but ya i really think iw asted my time in TPJC... totally crap place to be in

man i need to get rid of the ghost within...i need to be strong... i need to be confident...i need to be able to perform during crucial moments
i wish i was borned with athlete mind and body rather than a nerd....
somehow i hate my parents for nv letting try other things besides studying..
sigh..

i finally understand why some ppl will actually give up all the wealth in the world to go back packing with just $100
or even give up all the wealth to work in the UN

someone once tell me that i shd learn to drive a car...
cos its a good skill to have...

well i wldn't wanna drive car just so i can pick up chicks
or like show the rest of drivers how gd my horse power is
to boost my ego in short
hope license come on handy one day

now there are so much to learn...
but i willing to give up everything for it all...
even if it mean disrupting my studies for a while

i have a goal
it seems far reach...
but its wat keep me going.. but of cos i love cycling so so much


i want to win a SEA game medal one day... i really want!