mushroom soup and black paste

how do you confide to the girl the existance of the most beautiful angel, her charming character which blows you off your feet, someone just so simple yet perfect in your eyes when she is just sitting in front of you.

I thank god for everything that happened today, every 4hr 14min 37 sec of it.

oh well... after a night of planning plan A with drew and mel.... i am sorry to say dudes....
i decided to carry on with plan B

all was well, kind of queer at first... esp in th mrt... cos it has been a while since we last met
talk about the less impt things ie. her uni life...how busy she was blah blah...how dumb i became in army blah blah blah....
i just felt in some way... she wasn't at ease at all, like sth stuck up her throat or sth
then i asked the question," so are you attached?"

the ans caused me to turn cross eye... a moment of silence and pause of heatbeat.

that set off the flow of conversation.... talking about her life now... her bf, wat she plan to do in future etc...

its kind of funny... a nice way of funny.... when we started talking bout lots of food... she can still remember our romantic gateway at katong till today.... how we gobble down a plate of steak, chicken chop, chicken rice and fish fillet. an agreement that its a memory that remains with us for life.

brought her to shaw towers... ye the place mel intro me to a yr back... yup the one drew dislikes.
luckily the aunty(cook) got better in her cooking... but didn't wanna take the chance with any pasta(hokkien mee)

was cheap and good... throughout the meal there were endless topics in our minds.

from road trip- KL, sydney... cambodia to food and restaurants.

i promise to bring her to bottle neck restaurant one day... hope i keep the promise!

oh well if only it started this way from the start- she had to meet her friend at bugis.


somehow i am just attracted to her humble personality and simple way of life.

and her family is real sweet. i sure hope to meet them one day

she does not hide her mysterious side... neither does she put on any airs...even though she is real smart. surpisingly she has no plans to be a tai tai in future even though she is surrounded by many wannabes...

and she can cook. sth we are both interested in, esp on the part on why remnants of my ommelette just keeps getting stuck on the pan and whether her mom's cake is able to rise now.
yeah one day we will cook a storm together

just like wat happend on the fruitday on july 05 when i was given a ticket into the romantic world of adam and eve...... today was like a confirmation that a girl like her is still existant in this poisoned world of us.


aftermath:

quite obvious that she knew i liked her from the start.
for someone who nv fell in love b4... i really wonder how she is so accurate
and i think she kinda thought i will be disappointed... thus did not talk bout her bf from the start which resulted in a period of queer moment.

i am not diappointed, seriously, though its of contrary belief.
i really feel things have gone better than expected

for one, i felt good for the impression i left on her... at least i know i am worth sth more to her and didn't have to go thru a day of suaning session which i had to endure for 99.9% of my life and many yrs to come.

and i kind of ans my own questions on whther i was a fool/ retard for nv retaliating it came to an agreement that its our common trait of being a punching/suaning bag for everyone

at end of the day... man are all brothers... ignoring one's bad traits enjoying his gd pts will be equivalent to having one more friend. life is short, fun nv last...god make us in such a way that we have to suffer once in a while in order to differentiate the good and the bad times.

you know from the start, yeah at mel's house, the thought that was distracting me was not whether thr will come a moment whr there is nth to talk about, or i might fumble over my words...the greatest fear was whether the caroline i am fond of is not the caroline i knew 6 mth back... or an even more disasteous thought is that i will show my monsterous side only to regret and fallen




so things did turn out well, thank god for giving me a bowl of black paste and mushroom soup to share with someone i adore on such a cold day( hopefully not the last ) and more importantly making things straight again... and i promise to have a new yr resolution... spread the spirit of love and be a better person from now on