AAR for 2005

AAR is a term which army loves to use.

it stands for after action review.

I am gonna do my year end AAR on this rainy morning.

However unlike the army, this AAR will be useful and will benefit the ppl around me (the art of suaning without slapping across the face)

Dear God....

Thanx for this beautiful 2005.

You have been patient in teaching me the ropes even though i always show signs of resentment towards many changes

you have been kind to me, sheltering me from every adversities, it varies all the way from demanding COs, nearly collapsing during a marathon comp, and even when i am at the verge of getting killed in a accident, somehow you will always make me stand up and fight for a nother day

thank you for taking care of the ppl around me. Makin them understand and support me in races that my life is placed on the line.
Thank you for blessing the ppl around me with good health and more most importantly, thanks for bleeing me with so many beautiful ppl around me.

Thank you for making me different from others.
I have an unexplainable love-hate rs towards pain which nobody understands
I do not attract a singapore girl.(thank god)
I love the wild and unknown which varies from fear factor acts to girls who saunter around me in thier leopard skin undergarments.

However somehow i wish you will guide me along in these burning issues:
why is there un resolved hatrd in the world towards ppl of different ideologies.

why is it that i have these racist thoughts every single day?

why is it that i always blame a certain grp of ppl for mishaps which occurs. i always feel they are dysfunctional and nv trust or like a single one of them
but i respect and believe this not how you plan it to be.

And i always tend to falter in times when i will be able to shine. I will fall sick b4 an important competition, meet with some unfortunate events b4 a race. This has been a witness even since i was a pri sch kid. Somehow i will nv do as well as expected. Was these all planned for? Were you trying to teach me sth? When will i start to see the light?

I wish that for the new yr, i will be more tolerant towards other ppl and less emotional. more importantly, show less prejudice and perhaps get to understand ppl who i once thought of as being dysfunctional.

and most important question of all,
will i ever be no. 1 cyclist in singapore?